Stupid, Fallon, stupid!

Fallon was heartbroken. She missed him something fierce, and she just wanted him back. She had this ache in her chest, one that felt like it was taking over her whole body. She felt empty. When she was with Lucas she had never felt so amazing, but now she felt nothing. Just emptiness. The whole weekend, Lucas kept her laughing, smiling, and Lord, he kept her screaming. It was perfect and she needed him back.

She couldn’t believe that she had been such a selfish bitch. Lucas didn’t deserve that, not after everything he shared with her. Fallon didn’t fully trust him yet, but she was willing to try. Yeah, they had a past, but it wasn’t all bad. There were moments that still to this day she held very near and dear to her heart. There wasn’t a moment when she didn’t feel loved. Even when he was gone, he would constantly call just to say he loved her. The bad parts of their relationship she didn’t even think of anymore, well except for the night she found him with Allison. Thinking about those meaningless fights now, she decided that they weren’t that bad. They seemed bad at the time, but it was because she hated having him mad at her.

Since coming into Aiden’s life, Lucas had been there. He had been loving, funny, and honestly the best dad ever. He was everything Aiden had wanted in a father. That was why it was so easy for Aiden to fall in love with Lucas. Lucas was lovable. He was cocky as all hell, but lovable and Fallon loved him.

With all her heart.

Fallon was done with the bitterness, the anger, everything. She was ready to forgive him for all that happened. She understood that he never actually cheated on her, but he still wanted to. Regardless though, she was ready to let that go. She was ready to give him his chance. She couldn’t let their past dictate their future. Lucas was here, he was healthy, and he hopefully still wanted her.

She was ready to jump into the unknown with him, she was ready to take that chance — she had to. She missed him so much. She missed his cocky little grins, his playful love taps, his touches, and his laugh, his everything. She wanted their weekend back. Fallon wanted to go back to when she was getting out of Lucas’ bed to pack, to instead cuddle close to his gorgeous rock hard body and just love him.

Tears rushed to Fallon eyes and ran down her nose onto the desk as she took in small unsteady breaths of air. How could she be so stupid? How was she going to tell Lucas that she had been stupid? He probably wouldn’t even talk to her again. He had called but it had only been to talk to Aiden. Not that she answered the phone to find that out, but she was pretty darn sure that was why. He wouldn’t even come to the door to get Aiden that morning, which had to tell her something. He was mad, and he had every right to be.

Fallon sat up, moving her hand along her cheeks as she used her other hand to reach for a tissue. As she blew her nose, the door opened and Rob came in. He had on a bright pink shirt that said “Real men wear pink sometimes. Gay men wear it all the time” with a pair of sparkly blue jeans. He paired it with a cute black blazer and his hair was bone straight.

He looked positively adorable, except for the nervous look on his face.

“Don’t know how to answer your own phone?” he asked.

Fallon shrugged her shoulder, clearing her throat before saying, “I’m busy.”

“Busy doing what?”

Fallon look up, expelling a long breath. “What do you need, Rob?”

“Your dad was the one that was calling 900 times. He was wondering if everything is set for this weekend for the campaign.”

“Of course it is. Why wouldn’t it be?” Fallon asked. Did she miss something? She hadn’t worked the last couple days, but surely she hadn’t missed something important.

“I don’t know, he was questioning me and I said as far as I knew, everything was good.”

“It is as far as I know, but I’ll look over everything again.”

“Okay then. Everything is okay, right?”

Fallon glanced up at him, putting on one of her fake smiles. “Everything is fine.”

“Okay, well I’m not on lunch anymore, don’t worry about your phone,” Rob said with a smile as he went towards the door.

Fallon giggled as she nodded. “Thanks a bunch, Rob.”

He gave her one last smile and shut the door behind him. Fallon took in another deep breath before opening the drawer on her desk. She pulled out the little handwritten notes from Lucas and read each one. Tears filled her eyes with every word she read. What if he didn’t feel this way anymore? What if she broke him when she left for the second time?

Fallon’s phone rang, startling her and causing her to throw the little post it notes up in the air. She pressed her hand to her chest as she reached for her cell phone, seeing it was Audrey.

“Hey,” she said, still trying to catch her breath.

“Hey, whatcha doing?” Audrey sang, but Fallon knew instantly something was wrong.

“Nothing, work. What are you doing?”

“Oh, nothin’. When are you coming home?”

“Fourish. Why?”

Audrey didn’t saying anything for a moment and then in a rush she said, “AidenbrokehisarmandIneedyounottofreakout.”

“SAY WHAT?!” Fallon screamed, standing up and knocking the chair into the wall. “How! Is he okay? Oh my God, I’m on my way home.”

Audrey said something but Fallon had already hung up on her, throwing her phone in her purse before running out the office. “Gotta go,” she said to Rob as she ran down the orange-filled hall. Fallon was in such a state of worry; she hadn’t even realized she had run out the office without her heels until she was tip toeing through the parking lot. She shook her head as she jumped into her car and drove quickly out the parking lot. She turned onto West End and pressed the gas to get home.