Commander in Chief Page 32

“Say it. Again,” he growls.

Ten minutes later, I’m looking at a hand resting against my belly as we lie on his bed. My heart is racing and practically about to jump out of my body.

He hasn’t really said anything. He simply opened the door to the Oval, jerked his head in the direction of the hall, and I followed.

I followed down the hall, and up the stairs to the residence—and to his room, where he shut the door with a soft click.

I lie down in his bed, watching him kick off his shoes and come to sit beside me, his hand pulling my shirt up and resting on my stomach—his eyes as firmly fastened to me as his hand is.

I start to speak. “I know this is crazy but I . . .” My voice breaks then, because the hand starts to gently rub against my belly. A soothing motion that just makes me exhale and melt farther into the bed pillows.

His skin tan and smooth, his hand contrasts with the milky white skin of my stomach as it rises and falls with each breath I take.

I look at that hand and feel waves of emotion crash against me. Excitement, fear, amazement . . .

His head is now bent down to my stomach. He hasn’t said anything yet. I am practically bursting with nerves.

“Matt . . . please say something,” I beg softly.

I didn’t know how he would react, and I even considered showing him the “positive” marking on the first pregnancy test I took. Never mind the three subsequent positives I got after that. But I didn’t. I just spoke the words.

God. He was just sworn into office, is just laying down his plans to create real change in the country. A baby is the last thing he needs right now . . . it would overwhelm him and stress him beyond belief.

But now, there is no avoiding it, and my heart is clenching as I look at this man, his soft, dark hair hovering over my stomach, his hand soothing my belly.

I realize he may be disappointed. Or maybe contemplating how to handle this. The press conferences we need to hold, how to tell his mother . . .

Then I feel his eyes on me.

His eyes are impossibly dark, as if he’s fighting some emotion he doesn’t want to feel or acknowledge. “I don’t even know where to begin . . .” His voice thickens, but his expression tells me what he doesn’t speak in words.

He cups my face in both of his hands and kisses me fiercely, telling me everything I need to know.

Suddenly, as he sucks on my tongue with so much thirst that my toes curl, I really want to cry.

Because I didn’t plan for this baby. Neither did he.

But I want it. I want him to want it too.

When he draws back, he glances down at me proprietarily, his eyes lit up like firebrands, his expression so harsh with emotion and yet so tender. “I love you,” he says quietly, cupping my face in one warm hand. “You know that.”

His lips kiss my forehead as he whispers, “God, I really don’t want to fuck up now.”

He pulls back to bend over my stomach again, and I see the look of amazement in his eyes as he kisses right below my belly button. He rubs his cheek against that same spot and our eyes lock.

We’re having a baby.

Holy shit.

A million realizations start to rush into my head.

I have this man’s baby inside of me. We’re going to be a family. I’m going to make him a father. I’m going to be a mom!

Holy crap!

Are we ready?

I look at him and he sees the worry in my eyes and shakes his head, signaling me not to worry.

I nod my head and whisper, “What if we’re not ready?”

He looks at me and comes up to a full sit beside me, taking me into his arms.

He rubs my back with his big, warm hands, and I let myself be supported by him completely.

“I’m scared,” I breathe.

I love him so much I feel like my heart will break with the magnitude. I feel tears well up in my eyes as I think of all he is and all he has done. He is more than I ever wished for, more than I ever dreamed of, and I cry silent tears, thanking the world and the universe for giving me such a man.

“I love you, Charlotte,” he says against my ear. He turns my head to look into my eyes. “I’m not going to lie, I’m scared too. I don’t want to leave this child fatherless. Worse, I don’t want to be my father—not to you, not to this child.”

I see the fear in his eyes when he says that, and I am reminded of his life growing up in the White House.

“I know you didn’t want a family while in the White House. I feel awful that you’ll be burdened—”

“It’s no burden. I want this baby as much as I want you.” He looks at me, then swallows. “Holy shit.” He chuckles.

He frames my face in his hands and looks into my eyes.

“I want it. I’m going to be here for you, and for this baby.” He sounds as determined as a warlord. “Jesus, beautiful. Come here.”

I push my fears aside as he pulls my face in closer to his and kisses me with a tenderness so beautiful and loving, I don’t know whether to smile or cry.

I guess people weren’t kidding when they say pregnancy hormones make you very emotional . . .

I laugh a little at that and he smiles back to me.

“Charlotte . . . I am incredibly turned on by the idea of you carrying my child . . . our child . . . inside you.”

His eyes hold mine as he says, firmly, “This is perfect. The timing. The woman. The baby . . . Please, I don’t want you worrying,” he warns, shooting me a stern look.

I nod, my fears assuaged as I look into his eyes and realize he is completely right. I have never been more in love. More committed to someone as I am to him.

I know he will try to make this work, somehow.

I realize I not only want to be his wife, I want to be his children’s mother, and I want him to be the father of my children. I want to have a family with this man. I want this baby more than anything and as I look at him gazing at my belly again, I know this is perfect, and that we’ll be okay.

It’s my turn now as I take his face in my hands and tell him, “Matthew Hamilton, I am so in love with you, I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.”

He smirks and kisses my lips. “You’re going to pamper yourself senseless, because I want nothing but the best for my baby and its gorgeous mother.”

I laugh and then groan. “Gorgeous? If I’m like my mother, I’m going to be a sight for the time of my pregnancy.”

He shakes his head, then his gaze travels down to my stomach again and he growls, “You’re going to look incredibly sexy, not to mention completely desirable. I won’t be able to keep my hands off you . . .” He trails his tongue from my navel to my panty line, and all of a sudden things take a very different turn.

I play along with his game and give an exaggerated sigh. “I don’t know, Matt . . . I think you’ll want me to sleep in my room instead of with you because I’ll take up too much bed space and might not be too attractive.”

He looks up from where he was licking, to my dismay, but the look on his face makes me laugh because this man is completely serious. “The day I’m not attracted to you, I’ll be dead,” he says, as he unbuttons my pants.

“What are you doing?” I exclaim, excitement building both in my heart and somewhere else. I feign concern and say, “Are we having sex?”

“You can’t be serious! We’re having tons of sex,” he asserts, kissing along my stomach. “I’m not the kind of man”—he kisses again—“to deny himself his woman.” Another kiss. “I think it’s arousing as hell that you’re carrying my child and it makes me want to give you all kinds of pleasure.”

“Really?” I say. My heart practically combusted hearing his words.

“Yes . . . starting right now.”

I feel him pulling down my pants, and along with them my panties.

My breath catches in my throat. “Matt . . .”

“Shhh . . . let me,” he says.

I gulp and nod, unable to produce any words as his warm tongue slowly licks along my inner thighs.

“Don’t you have work to do?” I peep.

“I’ll go back to work as soon as you come. On my tongue, baby,” he croons, a low command, licking his warm tongue around and inside me.

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